Why REAL food? Why THIS blog?
Updated: Sep 30, 2018
I remember laying on the ground 3 months post pregnancy and tears were just streaming down my face. I finally had Ainsley down for a nap and I needed to do 20 million things-- showering being one of them, but I had chosen to work out that day.
I have always been lucky to have a fast metabolism, however after you have a baby, your body will never be the same(( which is actually pretty amazing-- however at the moment I was not thinking that)). So I remember laying there on the ground, not wanting to continue working out and just maybe coming to terms with the fact that the 15+ pounds I was trying to loose.... may just be around forever. I now understood why people had such a hard time getting back into the habit of working out. I had been working out during my pregnancy and before I was pregnant. However, a good couple months right before Ainsley my only workouts had been walking. Now I was suppose to just snap back into it?
Now days with social media at our finger tips, we see the filters, we see what everyone WANTS us to see. We are able to alter reality at the touch of a button. I mean how many times I posted a cutie picture of Ainsley and before that I had been sobbing because I felt like she didn't like me that day. I mean seriously.... we are TOO hard on ourselves.
Once I got back to work I started making even more excuses for myself. I was breastfeeding Ainsley and that was very hard for me-- I wouldn't have changed it for the world, but it really tested me. I am a perfectionist I will say and to not be able to succeed to my standards killed me. I had a lower milk supply and so I was constantly eating all the food they say to eat to up the milk supply--- I mean oatmeal every freaking day! However, it really did not help. During that time I told myself I didn't have that much time to work out. With pumping, being a single mom and a teacher for gosh sakes, I really put working out on the back burner. I think breastfeeding was so important to me, that I didn't want to go on a diet or eat LESS because I was in fear of loosing the amount of milk I had..... which would be JUST enough for that day.
To me eating healthy was always a priority, but once I was not able to be "on a diet" and working out was not as easy for me to schedule, I realized even more the importance of the food myself and Ainsley were taking in. I truly believe that you need a balance between what food you take in and the exercise however, I feel like there is a bigger percentage when it comes to the type of food you put in your body. I realized I had been doing it wrong. It wasn't about the diets, it wasn't about depriving my body of certain things, it was about the food itself. Since I wasn't able to work out as much, I was determined to make it work. I worked out when I could and really focused on the real food and real ingredients I was putting in my body. I looked at what things I could change--- for example my Starbucks obsession :) and started in on recipes, food ideas etc. for myself and Ainsley.
I could truly see a difference in my energy level, my mood, my attitude as a teacher and a mom, when I fueled my body with real food. However, something was missing. I realized I still was making excuses for myself. This generation we say more than ever I DO NOT HAVE TIME, I do not have time for that, I do not have time for this... blah blah blah. A lot of times, YES that maybe the case, but if it was REALLY important to us we would make time. I realized I was doing that with working out. Yes, I don't have all the time in the world, however if I was getting my body back into shape, I needed to get myself fully back into balance. Real food and real exercise too. I started waking up at 6 am before Ainsley would wake and get my work outs in then, prioritize when I did cleaning, shopping etc. so that I could fit the workout in when she was napping. However, I realized not only did I need to stop making excuses for myself, but I needed to be REALISTIC. No, I would not be working out everyday,and sometimes I would not be eating healthy, so I needed to figure out what worked for me.
It has been a long journey to get myself back to where I want to be. I have never been happy with my body. I was in a long term relationship for years and I was never happy with my body. Now, after carrying life inside of me, going through the birthing process, feeling at my all time low with my body--- I have never appreciated it more and really truly love my body. I now don't feel GUILT for having Andy's ;) or feel GUILT for those fries and ranch, because 80% I am on it and 20% will not kill me :)
I want this blog to inspire you, I want this blog to make you feel good about you. I want this blog to make you feel like you are not alone and that there is someone out there that knows it isn't easy. However at the same time if we want it bad enough we can make it happen. I want this blog to not feel like it is altering reality, but instead is reality:) I want to help you fuel the best life for you!
Thank you guys so much for all your support and just adore you all!!
(I posted a couple pictures of actual evidence as to what this process-- real food and real ingredients has done for my body)